Depression

What does it feel like?

It’s feels as if you’re being sucked into a dark black hole with no way out.

Your thoughts are jumbled and all over the place.
No matter how hard you try, you cannot think straight.

You feel alone.
Lonely.
Only seeking solace at your darkest places.

You eat yourself up on the inside with self-loathe and consuming hatred.

You are constantly being reminded by your inner demon how worthless and stupid you are.

You’re forced to act as if everything is fine when on the inside you are tearing yourself a part bit by bit.

With each day that passes, getting up in the morning gets so much harder.

You never give yourself credit or pride for the good work. Instead, you criticize everything negatively.

It feels as if the world can do better without you.

You are replaceable.

You are replaceable.

You are replaceable.

But why? You’ve got it all.
The looks.
The personality.
The money.

Don’t ask me why.
For, I myself don’t know.

Anxious.
Scared.
Demotivated.
Lost.
Sad.
Empty.

So damn tired.

It’s like living in a house that does not feel like home.

You are aware of where you are and what you do yet you do not know who you are or what you want.

You feel self-destructive.

Careless.

Selfish yet selfless – for, you do not want to burden anyone with the weight you’re carrying on your shoulders.

You do not want to tell anyone how you’re feeling.

Because no one understands.
and the sad truth is no one will understand.

So, don't ask me again what depression feels like,

even with all the words above, 

nobody will be able to give you the exact answer.

Because there is no right answer.